Happy 51st!

Did I get dumped on my birthday? Some might say that is questionable. Do I feel like I got dumped on my birthday? YES! It was going to be a beautiful day today and I guess it still will be. But, I cried today. I cried today, like a lot, because of love. Children of […]

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Overcoming Intimacy Issues after a Loss

Matt passed away in November of 2011. After his passing, within 2 years, I gained 30lbs. I was distraught and this was the time that I probably began with a new bought of depression. I hadn’t seriously been depressed in close to 15 years. The last time I had had suicidal thoughts was when Tupac […]

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Happy Earth Day!

Please be good to Planet Earth! Pick up trash, recycle, don’t use plastic, try not to use too much paper. Because this is Planet Earth and we need it! Much love! ❤ #HappyEarthDay  

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R.I.P. Dad

Rest in peace, Dad (12/9/1933 -12/22/2016) So thankful for who you were and who you evolved to be. “I love you so much, too.” My dad was a man who had four girls, me being the youngest. He was a strong, funny, and sometimes quiet man. He was a man who loved football (soccer) and was […]

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Trip back to the hospital to see my dad. 

On the train, back to see my dad. He’s still very critical. He was admitted a day before his birthday, December 8th. I went down from Los Angeles to San Diego that Sunday, a few days after and stayed until late Saturday, living in the waiting room or with my mom in his room. Never […]

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A week later.

Hello lovelies! Just got back home late last night from spending the last week in the hospital with my dad. He’s still in icu, still on the ventilator, and still sedated. They found 2 bacteria strains, which is causing his bacterial pneumonia, but they can’t understand why his lungs are bleeding. Tests still have yet to […]

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November 14th – 5 years later

It is amazing that it has been 5 years since you went away. I feel like it was yesterday that it was the last time I saw you. We were sitting in my car and you were telling me how hard every morning was because of the disappointment you felt that you let everyone down […]

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September the 13th

RIP, Lily (25yrs ago) and Tupac (20yrs ago). Such amazing souls and very similar. Enthusiastic, happy, fun loving friends of mine that were appreciative for the moments life was giving them. Lily, you changed my life. Tupac, you said things I needed to hear at a very lonely time. Thank you both for coming into my life […]

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Lttr to the suffering, hold on.

Dear ones that are suffering, Please hold on. Don’t give up. Life will get better. It took me a long time to get to other side of feeling hopeless, like life was always going to be hopeless. I am so beyond happy that I survived to the point I never want to leave this world. PLEASE, seek […]

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Where does our life and journey begin – Peru

Does our life and journey really begin at birth, or does our lineage collide with us to lay the foundation to our journey once we are born? Is our spirit passed on from lifetimes before, making amends, learning, and trying to evolve? I’ve always also felt that generations of my past did influence my upbringing. […]

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