The Aftermath

Grief, Sex, and Love After Matt passed, almost nine years ago, I thankfully was unemployed. I would have never been able to work after he died. It was hard enough to get my son to school; it was a 20+ minute drive from where we lived. I wasn’t able to sleep. I’d sit up in […]

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The pain can stop, if you just hold on.

Years ago, what seems like lifetimes ago, I tried killing myself a few times. I wanted the pain to end. I wanted the life I had to end. But, what I really wanted was a new life, a different life than the one I had. It’s all about change and the choices one must make […]

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Ode to Court today, 5/23/2017

As I sit here, next to you  I think of all these moments of time. The moments of my life, so long ago. My life was adventurous. My life had promise. My life had excitement of new loves, new experiences. Not everyone gets to live the high life of fun times in West Hollywood’s clubs […]

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R.I.P. Dad

Rest in peace, Dad (12/9/1933 -12/22/2016) So thankful for who you were and who you evolved to be. “I love you so much, too.” My dad was a man who had four girls, me being the youngest. He was a strong, funny, and sometimes quiet man. He was a man who loved football (soccer) and was […]

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Trip back to the hospital to see my dad. 

On the train, back to see my dad. He’s still very critical. He was admitted a day before his birthday, December 8th. I went down from Los Angeles to San Diego that Sunday, a few days after and stayed until late Saturday, living in the waiting room or with my mom in his room. Never […]

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