The pain can stop, if you just hold on.

Years ago, what seems like lifetimes ago, I tried killing myself a few times. I wanted the pain to end. I wanted the life I had to end. But, what I really wanted was a new life, a different life than the one I had. It’s all about change and the choices one must make […]

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A week later.

Hello lovelies! Just got back home late last night from spending the last week in the hospital with my dad. He’s still in icu, still on the ventilator, and still sedated. They found 2 bacteria strains, which is causing his bacterial pneumonia, but they can’t understand why his lungs are bleeding. Tests still have yet to […]

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Lttr to the suffering, hold on.

Dear ones that are suffering, Please hold on. Don’t give up. Life will get better. It took me a long time to get to other side of feeling hopeless, like life was always going to be hopeless. I am so beyond happy that I survived to the point I never want to leave this world. PLEASE, seek […]

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I matter

I’m just another writer, turned author, who hopes to be good enough that someone will like her book, her story. Many that know me may not know this about me and could never imagine the roads I’ve traveled. I was born into a family, at least from one side, that was very privileged. My grandfather […]

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excerpt – evolving to grace

During our lives, we had received tender touches by my mom at times; all us girls would jump in her bed and have her scratch our backs. We’d have a balance of humor from our dad and actual interaction, like when he’d play with us in the ocean or like that one time we all […]

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I was just barely 16 & still a virgin when I was raped

Excerpt, from Evolving to Grace A little over a week later, I lost my virginity, technically. I was raped. It is mind boggling what paths my journey took me on when I didn’t make good choices. I never stopped to even think of what I was doing. I shouldn’t have ever had a drink. I […]

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She Was My Mother, Bless Her Soul

an old paper/presentation from my Speech class at SMC, 1996….. Growing up in an alcoholic home has been characterized as similar in stress to being in the Nazi Concentration Camps of WWII, according to Dr. Vaillant. Alcoholism is like living with an air raid a day says authors, Middleton – Moz & Dwinell. Under these conditions […]

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