Reshuffle, reshuffle, and reshuffle some more.

January 25, 2022.Reading time 5 minutes.

I know what I want and I know what I deserve. It takes a long time to get here and as a Child of an Alcoholic, many of us say we will not be like them. But, I was one that held onto that for a long time. I probably went overboard, doing the extreme […]

Overcoming Intimacy Issues after a Loss

March 9, 2021.Reading time 19 minutes.

Matt passed away in November of 2011. After his passing, within 2 years, I gained 30lbs. I was distraught and this was the time that I probably began with a new bought of depression. I hadn’t seriously been depressed in close to 15 years. The last time I had had suicidal thoughts was when Tupac […]

Overcoming the Fear of Speaking Up

February 2, 2021.Reading time 7 minutes.

I’ve lived in fear of speaking up most of my life. I’ve only challenged it sometimes. Covid and quarantining makes you really have time to think. It gives you the time to work on things about yourself that you may want to change or the things about your life that you may want to overcome. […]

Opening the Wounds – Black Lives Matter

June 13, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

Opening the wounds. Are we finally done tolerating the mistreatment of black people? I heard that said by a news-reporter this morning on Good Morning America – ‘Opening the wounds’. These past two weeks have definitely opened up the wounds for me and lots of people. My heart aches, but it also cries with hope.It has […]

Never take anything for granted

March 20, 2020.Reading time less than 1 minute.

You really can’t take anything for granted. Family, friends, work, a paycheck, bike rides, sunsets, days off, taking pictures, hugs, kisses, holding hands, the beach, the sun, a walk at the beach or through a favorite museum, ACA meetings, eating out, and sitting in the sun for hours.Whatever it is, try to never take anything […]

Life can end in a second

January 11, 2020.Reading time 1 minute.

A little shaken up. When I saw all the cop cars racing to where I was and then saw one open his door while the car was still moving with a rifle in hand I knew it was bad. Then in less than 5 seconds three gunshots behind me. I didn’t stop to turn around […]

When men just don’t know any better?

January 15, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

A few weeks ago I was approached with a job opportunity for an Accounting position. I’ve been out of work for a while and I’m in desperate need because my finances are dwindling down. So, when I was approached with a possible job for a major social media influencer in Beverly Hills, I was thrilled […]

You Can Choose

October 14, 2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

You can choose to stay in the hurt and pain. You can choose to remain angry. You can choose to be like them. You can choose to continue victimizing yourself. You can choose to live in the negative. You can choose to throw it all away. Or, You can choose to live […]

Do What You Love

October 13, 2017.Reading time 2 minutes.

One thing I don’t share about me too often is one of my passions – photography. It’s been something I’ve been loving and doing since about the age of 6. It brings me happiness and it is 1 of the things I actually think I am good at. I believe we all should […]

R.I.P. Chester Bennington

July 22, 2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

Two days and I am sitting in my motel room crying, weeping. After I heard the news I was shocked and cried, but for 2 days I went on with my days in disbelief, numb, heartbroken, in a fog. I’ve been known to be “sensitive”, like it was a bad thing to be. What I’ve […]