Letter to My Deadbeat – 30+ Years Later

February 27, 2025.Reading time 32 minutes.

Dear Deadbeat, Our chapter is coming to an end. It’s been a little more than 30 years since I was 24 years old and I told you that I was pregnant. We were both living in Hollywood. Living the dream that most 20-year-olds only dreamt about. Hitting the hottest clubs, being around the prettiest people […]

Reshuffle, reshuffle, and reshuffle some more.

January 25, 2022.Reading time 5 minutes.

I know what I want and I know what I deserve. It takes a long time to get here and as a Child of an Alcoholic, many of us say we will not be like them. But, I was one that held onto that for a long time. I probably went overboard, doing the […]

Are you involved with or dating a narcissist?

January 5, 2022.Reading time 15 minutes.

Subtle things to watch out for if you suspect something wrong in your partner: Narcissists might like you but only because it relates to something they either do or that will benefit them. I dated a narcissist and after a couple weeks, I kept on asking him what he liked about me. Not that I […]

3 1/2 Weeks

November 30, 2021.Reading time 2 minutes.

As I sit here on the cliff’s edge, overlooking the ocean, I wonder what happened. Was three weeks apart just too long for you to still adore me? Or, did you have time to think? Getting to know someone isn’t easy, especially when you haven’t had enough time. It’s not always rainbows and sprinkles. As […]

Letter to my Rapist

May 26, 2021.Reading time 24 minutes.

It wasn’t until recently that I came to realize how my rape truly affected me. At the age of 16, I lost my virginity to being raped. I never before realized how for decades, this act plagued me, and my encounters and involvements with men. I minimized the violation, to being passed out for most […]

Memories through a Photograph – Innocence Lost

March 18, 2021.Reading time 10 minutes.

Every once in a while I come across this picture. I have a few pictures from this night in 1986. I always had a camera handy to capture anything and everything. I’ve probably captured too many memories that most would like to forget. But, the more times that I have come across this image, I […]

The Aftermath

September 29, 2020.Reading time 13 minutes.

Grief, Sex, and Love After Matt passed, almost nine years ago, I thankfully was unemployed. I would have never been able to work after he died. It was hard enough to get my son to school; it was a 20+ minute drive from where we lived. I wasn’t able to sleep. I’d sit up in […]

Never take anything for granted

March 20, 2020.Reading time less than 1 minute.

You really can’t take anything for granted. Family, friends, work, a paycheck, bike rides, sunsets, days off, taking pictures, hugs, kisses, holding hands, the beach, the sun, a walk at the beach or through a favorite museum, ACA meetings, eating out, and sitting in the sun for hours.Whatever it is, try to never take anything […]

It’s been a while. Hello again!

September 7, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

It’s been a while since I have written a post. I think sometimes I stay away from writing. But, writing to me is usually therapeutic and perhaps I haven’t wanted to reach deep or possibly I haven’t felt okay with being so vulnerable. But, as most of my writing happens, I felt an urge to […]

Once I stopped running from my pain.

January 5, 2018.Reading time 3 minutes.

“Life doesn’t get easier or more forgiving, we get stronger and more resilient.” -Steve Maraboli ❤ It’s so amazing how as a teenager I use to run. Run from my surroundings, run from my life, run from everything. It was my way of escaping. I was trying to escape from the reality of everything that had gone […]