Letter to My Deadbeat – 30+ Years Later

February 27, 2025.Reading time 32 minutes.

Dear Deadbeat, Our chapter is coming to an end. It’s been a little more than 30 years since I was 24 years old and I told you that I was pregnant. We were both living in Hollywood. Living the dream that most 20-year-olds only dreamt about. Hitting the hottest clubs, being around the prettiest people […]

Overcoming Intimacy Issues after a Loss

March 9, 2021.Reading time 19 minutes.

Matt passed away in November of 2011. After his passing, within 2 years, I gained 30lbs. I was distraught and this was the time that I probably began with a new bought of depression. I hadn’t seriously been depressed in close to 15 years. The last time I had had suicidal thoughts was when Tupac […]

Growth thru a Pandemic – Seeing the Beauty on the Outside

February 10, 2021.Reading time 14 minutes.

Looking beautiful on the outside is what makes some have status in this world. Some people perceive that everything is great and perfect, as long as you are beautiful. Doors open up for the beautiful people. They seem to get further in life than some of their counterparts. But, how true is it that […]

Never take anything for granted

March 20, 2020.Reading time less than 1 minute.

You really can’t take anything for granted. Family, friends, work, a paycheck, bike rides, sunsets, days off, taking pictures, hugs, kisses, holding hands, the beach, the sun, a walk at the beach or through a favorite museum, ACA meetings, eating out, and sitting in the sun for hours.Whatever it is, try to never take anything […]

Life can end in a second

January 11, 2020.Reading time 1 minute.

A little shaken up. When I saw all the cop cars racing to where I was and then saw one open his door while the car was still moving with a rifle in hand I knew it was bad. Then in less than 5 seconds three gunshots behind me. I didn’t stop to turn around […]

A week later.

December 18, 2016.Reading time 1 minute.

Hello lovelies! Just got back home late last night from spending the last week in the hospital with my dad. He’s still in icu, still on the ventilator, and still sedated. They found 2 bacteria strains, which is causing his bacterial pneumonia, but they can’t understand why his lungs are bleeding. Tests still have yet to […]

Making amends before it’s too late.

December 13, 2016.Reading time 2 minutes.

Sorry I have been MIA. I came down to San Diego on Sunday. I had received news that my dad was being put on a ventilator. He had been admitted a few days prior, unfortunately the day before his 83rd birthday. As many of you that have read my book know, I haven’t had the […]

September the 13th

September 13, 2016.Reading time less than 1 minute.

RIP, Lily (25yrs ago) and Tupac (20yrs ago). Such amazing souls and very similar. Enthusiastic, happy, fun loving friends of mine that were appreciative for the moments life was giving them. Lily, you changed my life. Tupac, you said things I needed to hear at a very lonely time. Thank you both for coming into my life […]

Lttr to the suffering, hold on.

August 17, 2016.Reading time 1 minute.

Dear ones that are suffering, Please hold on. Don’t give up. Life will get better. It took me a long time to get to other side of feeling hopeless, like life was always going to be hopeless. I am so beyond happy that I survived to the point I never want to leave this world. PLEASE, seek […]