Go home little bird go home

November 19, 2025.Reading time 3 minutes.

Go home little bird go home. Your place is now up in the sky with your loved ones that await you. Go home and release all your cries. Your pain went beyond your wings. You’ll never recognize the damage that’s been done. I’ve been told you were difficult even when you were young. All I’ve […]

Letter To My Sisters

February 9, 2024.Reading time 2 minutes.

To all my sisters and all the darling sisters of sisters who feel the same way about their sisters. Dear Sister,I love you so much.I wish I could give you everything you deserve.I wish I could take away all the turmoil, that your body and soul searches to get rid of.I wish you could’ve had […]

Sometimes I Think of How Badly I Really Need a Drink

March 2, 2023.Reading time 5 minutes.

It’s been a stressful last 5 months. I’ve been sick three times, I’ve been to court three times and had a knee injury. The last court case went well. Deadbeat offered to up monthly child support payments to resolve his balance within a year. But, I think he walked away from that court hearing wondering […]

Reshuffle, reshuffle, and reshuffle some more.

January 25, 2022.Reading time 5 minutes.

I know what I want and I know what I deserve. It takes a long time to get here and as a Child of an Alcoholic, many of us say we will not be like them. But, I was one that held onto that for a long time. I probably went overboard, doing the […]

Are you involved with or dating a narcissist?

January 5, 2022.Reading time 15 minutes.

Subtle things to watch out for if you suspect something wrong in your partner: Narcissists might like you but only because it relates to something they either do or that will benefit them. I dated a narcissist and after a couple weeks, I kept on asking him what he liked about me. Not that I […]

Letter to my Rapist

May 26, 2021.Reading time 24 minutes.

It wasn’t until recently that I came to realize how my rape truly affected me. At the age of 16, I lost my virginity to being raped. I never before realized how for decades, this act plagued me, and my encounters and involvements with men. I minimized the violation, to being passed out for most […]

Memories through a Photograph – Innocence Lost

March 18, 2021.Reading time 10 minutes.

Every once in a while I come across this picture. I have a few pictures from this night in 1986. I always had a camera handy to capture anything and everything. I’ve probably captured too many memories that most would like to forget. But, the more times that I have come across this image, I […]

Happy 51st!

March 11, 2021.Reading time 13 minutes.

Did I get dumped on my birthday? Some might say that is questionable. Do I feel like I got dumped on my birthday? YES! It was going to be a beautiful day today and I guess it still will be. But, I cried today. I cried today, like a lot, because of love. Children of […]

Overcoming Intimacy Issues after a Loss

March 9, 2021.Reading time 19 minutes.

Matt passed away in November of 2011. After his passing, within 2 years, I gained 30lbs. I was distraught and this was the time that I probably began with a new bought of depression. I hadn’t seriously been depressed in close to 15 years. The last time I had had suicidal thoughts was when Tupac […]

Growth thru a Pandemic – Seeing the Beauty on the Outside

February 10, 2021.Reading time 14 minutes.

Looking beautiful on the outside is what makes some have status in this world. Some people perceive that everything is great and perfect, as long as you are beautiful. Doors open up for the beautiful people. They seem to get further in life than some of their counterparts. But, how true is it that […]